The heart of a Rock Star

I have come to know a lot of men lately - some as refined and dreamy as Christian Grey that you would not assume he could do vanilla with anyone, or as broodingly temperamental as Travis Maddox who tends to snap every now and then but with the softest heart for his Pigeon, or as secretively seductive and beautiful as Giddeon Cross who can definitely turn your world upside down. These men, of course, despite being the "perfect" guy that they are, held a lot more than just good looks and an incredible history of seducing women. They all held a secret. And that secret, is what made them humanly tangible in all aspects. I have read their stories, and I swear, I have swooned and gushed over how capable of romance a broken man can be.

Then, I came across a rock star by the name of Kellan Kyle. His story was very typical: a too-hot-to-handle moody artist with an almost-there-fame, frontman and lead singer of his band (the D-Bags), is bestfriend with this guy Denny, and was involved in a love triangle. I would never have wanted to read this series but I needed to since I was feeling the depression of not being able to read any good material lately. LOL.  

To my surprise, the story was beyond any of my expectations. 

Others said the story was dragging, but I never felt like it dragged me. I thought of it as very explicit, the author clearly describing how the heroine - Keira Allen, felt. The series brought me to a kaleidoscope of emotional struggle : love, lust, guilt, desire, confusion, anger, jealousy and even bravery. I could not withstand not finishing Thoughtless and moving on to its sequel, Effortless, that I endured sleepless nights during my days off. But it was worth it, since the plot just got better and better. And as if I have not surprised myself enough, for the first time since I have been hooked to reading Erotic/Romantic/New Adult genre novels, I cried. 

Yes, I cried.

And before you get to conclude how much of a sappy person I am, read this note that Kellan hid for Keira, the very culprit of my outburst:

 The note spoke volumes to me. Asking for someone not to give up on you seemed to have hit close to home more likely than the cheating and falling out of love part. Then did I realize being in a relationship is not all about the romance, nor love per se. It is also about having faith. 

Now, I have read this series twice. And each time I come across this part, I can't help but cry. And to me, that is as good as giving this novel a 5-star rating. It moved me. It helped me understand that cheating will never be okay. But to some extent, if the person we loved fell for someone else, then, let that person go. We should try to dismiss feeling responsible for the loss we never intended to happen in the same manner that we should not stay in a relationship just because it is "conveniently safe". As how Denny said it to Keira,


“I think in the end, you would have stayed with me, out of obligation...or maybe comfort. Maybe I was safe to you, and you needed to feel that. I know how scared you get of the unknown. To you...I must be kind of a security blanket. Do you see now, how that doesn't work for me? I don't want to be there, simply because the idea of me being gone is too...scary. I want to be someone's everything. I want fire and passion, and love that's returned, equally. I want to be someone's heart... Even if it means breaking my own.”


I can't wait to read Reckless, the third installment to SC Stephens beautiful TL series. I don't really know what to expect, since these couple are nowhere near predictable. But I hope the final hoorah won't end up breaking my own heart. LOL.

Oh! I came across this music video by Jessie McCartney. His style is very Kellan Kyle-ish with just the basic white top, almost fitted jeans, leather wristband and the perfect song to boot that clearly explains the struggle my favorite rock star had to endure while loving someone from a distance.

There may have been a roster of possible Kellan Kyles out there. I've seen other blogs and fans posting pics as to who could be IT for them. As for me, I am keeping my imagination run as wild as it could. He is just too good to be personified. Not one male probability can stand a candle next to how I have envisioned him in my head.

 On a more personal note, I will forever love you Kellan Kyle. Complicated as you are, but you are definitely worth the time and tears. ♥