I have come to know a lot of men lately - some as refined and dreamy as Christian Grey that you would not assume he could do vanilla with anyone, or as broodingly temperamental as Travis Maddox who tends to snap every now and then but with the softest heart for his Pigeon, or as secretively seductive and beautiful as Giddeon Cross who can definitely turn your world upside down. These men, of course, despite being the "perfect" guy that they are, held a lot more than just good looks and an incredible history of seducing women. They all held a secret. And that secret, is what made them humanly tangible in all aspects. I have read their stories, and I swear, I have swooned and gushed over how capable of romance a broken man can be.
Then, I came across a rock star by the name of Kellan Kyle. His story was very typical: a too-hot-to-handle moody artist with an almost-there-fame, frontman and lead singer of his band (the D-Bags), is bestfriend with this guy Denny, and was involved in a love triangle. I would never have wanted to read this series but I needed to since I was feeling the depression of not being able to read any good material lately. LOL.
To my surprise, the story was beyond any of my expectations. Others said the story was dragging, but I never felt like it dragged me. I thought of it as very explicit, the author clearly describing how the heroine - Keira Allen, felt. The series brought me to a kaleidoscope of emotional struggle : love, lust, guilt, desire, confusion, anger, jealousy and even bravery. I could not withstand not finishing Thoughtless and moving on to its sequel, Effortless, that I endured sleepless nights during my days off. But it was worth it, since the plot just got better and better. And as if I have not surprised myself enough, for the first time since I have been hooked to reading Erotic/Romantic/New Adult genre novels, I cried. Yes, I cried. And before you get to conclude how much of a sappy person I am, read this note that Kellan hid for Keira, the very culprit of my outburst:
The note spoke volumes to me. Asking for someone not to give up on you seemed to have hit close to home more likely than the cheating and falling out of love part. Then did I realize being in a relationship is not all about the romance, nor love per se. It is also about having faith. Now, I have read this series twice. And each time I come across this part, I can't help but cry. And to me, that is as good as giving this novel a 5-star rating. It moved me. It helped me understand that cheating will never be okay. But to some extent, if the person we loved fell for someone else, then, let that person go. We should try to dismiss feeling responsible for the loss we never intended to happen in the same manner that we should not stay in a relationship just because it is "conveniently safe". As how Denny said it to Keira,
“I think in the end, you would have stayed with me, out of
obligation...or maybe comfort. Maybe I was safe to you, and you needed
to feel that. I know how scared you get of the unknown. To you...I must
be kind of a security blanket. Do you see now, how that doesn't work for
me? I don't want to be there, simply because the idea of me being gone
is too...scary. I want to be someone's everything. I want fire and
passion, and love that's returned, equally. I want to be someone's
heart... Even if it means breaking my own.” I can't wait to read Reckless, the third installment to SC Stephens beautiful TL series. I don't really know what to expect, since these couple are nowhere near predictable. But I hope the final hoorah won't end up breaking my own heart. LOL. Oh! I came across this music video by Jessie McCartney. His style is very Kellan Kyle-ish with just the basic white top, almost fitted jeans, leather wristband and the perfect song to boot that clearly explains the struggle my favorite rock star had to endure while loving someone from a distance.
There may have been a roster of possible Kellan Kyles out there. I've seen other blogs and fans posting pics as to who could be IT for them. As for me, I am keeping my imagination run as wild as it could. He is just too good to be personified. Not one male probability can stand a candle next to how I have envisioned him in my head.
On a more personal note, I will forever love you Kellan Kyle. Complicated as you are, but you are definitely worth the time and tears. ♥
Okay.. I may be a little behind with photo blogging. And clearly, I am not that good with photo editing.
But I got to play around with the various tools from www.pixlr.com and after a thorough selection of app, I just fell in love with its Vintage effect. Take a look :
This is my personal Birthday Collage aptly titled: " Bogart's favorite B's" - Bohemian - Blueberry Cheesecake - Bib Necklace - Breakfast
Why Bogart? That would be my alter-ego's name: someone who does not mind bumming around and spending an eternity's worth of chillaxing and idle time.
Next up:
Yeap! It might take quite a while before we get to have another one of this in the future. But nonetheless, I wouldn't mind doing a repeat. :) And lastly:
I just want to make a shout out to the coolest person that has ever graced Mandaue City : ME! lol. But seriously, this just looks well put together despite the display of canned goods and other dried items in the back. And a Kudos to have pulled off a Jason Mraz feminine version with this look. ♥
Dear 27 year old Me, First of all, Happy Birthday to you! You have earned yet another year to either screw up or make it! But in all honesty, I really couldn't care less which of the 2 you do. Because either way, you always come out better and stronger. I know you sometimes question yourself if you are ever worthy of the love and affection that both your family and peers are showing you. You think the worst of yourself sometimes. You are scared to come real close to anyone thinking that you may never get appreciated. You love the spotlight - but only for a good 3 minutes and you wish the world would just cave in and swallow you whole because having more than 3 minutes of their attention makes you feel barenaked. You are a mixture of fire and ice, an almost perfect combination of passion and nonchalance. Yet despite your uncertainties, you still get to see the good side of everyone - even to those who have deserted and pained you. You have learned to let go, to sail away and pirouhette with your everyday dreams thinking that life is never a bed of roses, but a road that must be travelled with arms wide open! You value Thank You's and I'm Sorry's. You hold on to promises. You believe in happily ever after. And you love despite being hurt. You simply don't give up. It may take longer for everything to come into place. It may still take time for you to come around certain things and certain people. And that's okay.
Never let a single frustration hold you back. You know better than to be bullied by the different degrees of absurdities that might be thrown your way. You are a vision. Be that vision. Always remember that you get to live your life just once. And the best things in life don't have repeats. So live while you're in it. Embrace the odds and appreciate the good! You are more than what you think. Be your own shining star! And always remember that I love you. Not because I know you, but because I am you.
